dear friend
Dear friend of mine it has been so long since we’ve crossed ways.
I miss your searing touch in these dark days,
the marks you leave
for all to see
even the secrecy of it all
you were the main source of my beautiful downfall.
my soul shall forever be missing something without you malicious touch of pain.
I love you even though you are so vile and ripped into a vein.
I’ve left you out of vanity
the scars they remind me of sanity.
Always, forever I’ll be missing you
and the comfort in a dark red hue.
You whisper to me “come back just this once”
I resist I cant’ I’ve stayed away, away for months.
Take me back into your cold embrace
NO never! my arms and legs you will no longer deface. - By Khalea
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Every thing grew dark,
The air was cold with a bitter twinge of regret.
And the hand that once held mine gone, lost, nearly forgoten.
The promises we made became dust in the wind,
and the laughter an empty echo of yesterday.
I’ve lost my way and so have you.
Wandering on in search of happiness we may never reach.
Strangers now, gone, lost. nearly forgot..
Ghost
Wandering, lost, cold, hopless, screaming out to the crowd, pleading for peace, for help, for someone to save her from the monster.
Nobody hears they walk past. ignoring, not seeing, blinded by their realitys that are so different from hers.
The monster calls out rushing to her, needing to be satisfied, his hunger needing sated for another night.
Pushing through the crowd she runs, pleading, begging for the help she know she will not recieve.
Her armour not strong enough to keep his claws at bay.
Tears streaming waterfalls of pain and sorrow she screams.
Shes real, why cant they see her, hear her, or feel her touch?
she is nothing but a ghost, a whisp of mist. Lost alone forgotten.
The monster wins.
when the veins bleed dry and the heart stops maybe then they’ll care
Ugh
One day the pain will subside and the scars will fade.
I wont need you as much as much as I do today.
one day ill be set free
from this prison that is me.
By well, me.
Smiling through the tears.
I’ve had a hard life for a long time, and honestly I’ve let it get me so down that I’ve wanted to lay down and die. Thing have gotten so bad to the point I would refuse to interact with people. Then one day I woke up and thought, ” Damn it Khalea get your ass out of bed and make something of today!”. That’s exactly what I did I went out did things for my sick mother and then had the very greatest day with my best friend. Laughing and running around just being fools. It all made me realize even though my life has the making of a beautiful sob story with no prince charming, winning lottery ticket in site and no fairy god mother to bring my dead loved one back, I still need to stay happy get out there with a smile on my face and make the best out of every day while I still can. I don’t want to wake up on my death bed one day and realized I wasted my life away because things got tough. So no matter how upset I am today or tomorrow or even a year from now I’m going to smile and enjoy my life as best as I can.
